July 15th, 2021: Living Between Knowing and Not Knowing


I am dictating this block while driving down to Lethbridge. It is sunny on my left as the sun is trying to break through. However, it is smoky on my right as the smoke from various fires from British Columbia coming over to Alberta. It will be a hot day.


It is like our life with God. We know that God wants to have a breakthrough with us. We think we want the same, but we find ourselves hiding from him. It is a challenge sometimes because we see Him, and yet we are afraid of seeing Him. We are waiting for some clear indicators that He is there with us. We live between what we know and what we do not know. We see the Light, but we don't want the benefits of His presence. 


Then we looked over the other side we find all the confusion and uncertainty. The haziness of my mind and the unsettledness of my spirit seem to dominate our hearts and minds. It is heavy, and we find it hard to breathe. We want to get out of it, and yet it is so pervasive in the horizons. We cannot see, and we cannot feel. There was a send at numbness in our beings.


I live in this state a lot of times when I pray for our countries. I pray for clarity with the hope that I might see the Light. Sometimes I can have a glimpse of it. It appears, and then it disappears. I know that God has not taken away His presence. I am afraid that we might have denied it.


The only thing I know for sure is my destination is definite. I just need to focus on what I see then allow what I can see to lead me. There's no doubt God has a plan for the world. Now is the time for us to respond to that plan.


Romans 1: 18-23

"For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth. For what can be known about God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. Claiming to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things."

 

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